Army Life From A Future Wife: Your Total Amount.

After hearing that daily at the grocery store, Starbucks, even gas stations. You never really think about those words YOUR TOTAL AMOUNT... What is my total amount,what will I amount to? Lately I have found myself questioning "myself". I date a HERO! But what am I? He serves our country, fights for your freedom & rights. But what am I?

What am I good at? That's been the worst question of all! Maybe I'm to hard on myself but I don't feel I have a unique talent for anything. I don't stand out or am abnormally good at anything. Then there's that word NORMAL!!! That's all I am, but I don't want that to be all I'll ever be.

I don't want to feel normal anymore but the only time I feel special is with him. But I know I shouldn't have to rely on him to make me feel good {and let me tell you he makes me feel like the most wonderful girl alive!} I guess I just wish I could see myself through his eyes.

I don't have to have the nice clothes I so badly wish I could have, I don't have to be a beautiful blond with blue eyes and a perfect smile, I don't have to be that girl that everyone I mean EVERYONE loves... You know That girl? The one that all the girls in High School with were her best friend. Shes smart funny popular beautiful! The girl you wish you were! I don't have to be her. And he still loves ME! Why cant I feel the way he does about myself? Why cant the fact that he loves me be enough?

Lord,

YOU are my confidence. I am so in love with you!

Keep me focused on you even when I'm discouraged

and scared about being inadequate. Give me assurance

of your presence, your help in all you've called

me to do. Even when I feel alone constantly let

me remember your promise WITH YOU ALL THINGS ARE

POSSIBLE.

So with me questioning myself I thought it might be a good night to properly introduce myself, my family, and my life! :) Here are some pictures to help!

Me :)